Wednesday, January 5, 2011

He's a big yellow dog!.

Enough already about me and my patience exercises and what goes on in a typical day in my life. Today was another long day, got up at 6:15am took my wife to work. It is still really dark at that time of day and fairly cold too. We have a yellow lab as a pet, not a small dog by any means, he tips the scale at just about 110 lbs. This week as I have been taking my wife to work I have taken Champ with me to go for a ride. He is the most expressive dog. His complete joy at going for a ride is a sight to behold. The big yellow head sticking out the back window of my black car with tinted windows is kinda funny. His tongue hanging out, the smile on his face in unmistakable.

On a normal day when I am not working or on a schedule that has me home part of the morning, Champ and I head out to one of the parks in our area and I throw his soft frisbee for him. He loves to run hard and snatch the flying disc out of the air. His head held high and his tail sticking straight up as he returns, the bounce in his step is so profound and his unrestrained joy brings a smile to my face after every toss. He goes and goes without stopping until he decides that he's had enough and he just looks at me with that "okay I'm done" look. Breathing hard and his legs shaking from the exertion, the joy of being out and playing comes off him in waves. His big brown eyes full of expression, seem to look right into me, making me feel good for taking the time to get out and play with him.

A dog's life is simple, eat, sleep, play, poop and be with his people. Champ likes nothing more than to just be with us. It really doesn't matter what we are doing as long as he can be near us. Each afternoon when we come home he is there waiting, although he waits in our bedroom for me and he goes to the garage door when my wife comes home. I don't take it personal, its just that he likes my wife better! Having a pet is awesome. Of course, there are the obligatory responsibilities that come with having a pet, especially on like Champ. He needs to go outside first thing in the morning and when he comes back in, it's time for him to be fed. Routine is very important to having a healthy, happy dog in the house. Outside play time and just loving interaction are basic requirements of each and every day. So off I go to get Champ off the bed out of my spot and snuggle in for a the night. Yes, every night Champ is the first one on the bed before either my wife or I can get under the covers. When he stretches out, he can easily take up half of our queen size bed. Thank God that he is such a good dog and gets down onto his own bed when I come into the room and tell him it's my turn. He's our big yellow dog and we love him!

Sheesh, my train of thought is all over the place and I am rambling...tomorrow is the Puyallup Viking vs Rogers Rams boys basketball game, a rivalry that is always fun to attend. I am blessed to be on the mic and need to get to bed so that I can get some decent sleep before getting up tomorrow to do it all over again. Tomorrow will probably be a recap of the game from the public address announcers perspective.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

January 4, 2011 - The Patience workout continues...

So if you've been reading you know that I thought it would be a good idea to focus on making sure I was and am more patient in my dealings with others, situations and circumstances that I encounter. Consequently, the past few days have been a non-stop series of opportunities for me to exercise my self-control and patience in a diverse manner of challenging and some emotionally charged situations. Today was more of the same...

NBC was in town last week for the NFC West NFL game with the Seahawks and Rams. I was blessed with the opportunity to work for a few days with the production crew, then switched over to the technical/broadcast crew for the game on Sunday. After the win by Seattle ( Yeah!) NBC let us know they would be in town next week for the first round playoff game, although it was going to be a different production and broadcast crew coming in, ( don't ask, it makes a lot of sense for the people here to just stay I know, but it's much more complicated then logic would dictate). Anyway, I was pulled aside and talked to about coming in on Wednesday and helping with the "shipping" by one of the tech managers and I was also told I would be getting a call from the production side to again be a runner/production assistant just as I had been this last weekend. I let them know that I had a couple of evening commitments on Wednesday and Thursday and that I was already scheduled to work for FSN at the UW men's basketball game as a utility and that I would be able to get someone to cover that spot for me, so I would be available to work on Saturday as a utility, (just as I had done the previous week). All seemed in order and went to find my car with a dead battery! (that was a fun way to end a long day)

Monday comes and I am contacted and advised that I am now going to be the stage manager for the UW basketball game, a job that I much prefer at a better day rate. The catch here is that now I cannot drop the basketball game and work the football game for NBC. I had already contacted someone to cover the utility spot for me for the FSN gig and called to see if he would be ok working the NFL game...silly question! He was in and I made a call to NBC headquarters and left a message for the crewer to give me a call. Feeling that I had the situation in hand, I was glad I had been able to cover myself, I was still able to work Wednesday, Thursday and Friday for NBC so I didn't think much of it. Shortly thereafter, a call comes from New York and it is the production manager calling to see if I'm available to be his production assistant as I had been the previous week. I let him know of my evening commitments and that the situation on game day had switched and I wasn't available any longer, but I had someone who was amply qualified to take my spot. At this time I was under the impression that I would be there Wednesday morning to handle the shipping as I had already discussed and he said we could work out the details on Wednesday. So far so good...if you're still reading this, "thanks for your patience!" i'm getting to the good stuff soon...

This morning I get the confirmation from the crewer at FSN I am in fact the stage manager, he had to move me due to the fact that so many others had bailed on the show and were now working the football game. I let him know that I too was scheduled for the football game but would stick with him out of loyalty in the hope that he would remember my sacrifice for him down the road and use me to fill openings that occurred in his schedule. He was thankful and let me know that he appreciated me making the effort. As I told him, I would rather do the stage manage gig, but the football job paid more, so any extra days he could send my way would be appreciated by me. I also let him know that I was still scheduled to work the three days prior for NBC so it was a total loss from the employment perspective. Little did I know that within a couple of hours that would all change.

At about 1:30pm my time (4;30pm eastern time) I got a call from the technical crewer from NBC who had hired me the week before and whom I had left a message for the previous day. He started out telling me that I was booked for four days, Wednesday through Saturday and I would be doing the shipping all week long. This was news to me as my discussion on Sunday was not specific about what I would be doing and I thought I had been clear as to my situation. I let him know how my situation had changed and I was no longer available on Saturday, but I had someone to fill my spot for him. His tone immediately changed and I could tell he was not happy with the information I was giving him. I let him know I had talked with the production manager yesterday and had explained my situation to him and he had said that we would work it out on Wednesday morning. This sent him into a small tirade about who was who and who I should be listening to, but ultimately it sounded like it was all being laid at my feet for the miscommunication and problems I had created. With a terse and abrupt comment he let me know that I was most likely not going to be working for them at all as Saturday was the most important day for me to be there and he would look into it and call me back. The line went dead and I was left alone to take a few deep breaths and reflect on how I had gone from four days of work to one and in the process been made to be the scapegoat?

Patience is the exercise of self-control and the challenge to hold your tongue when emotions inside want to come out uncensored and unfiltered. The previous few days of working on my patience paid dividends while I was on the phone. My first response was to fire back that I had done all I could and the fact that they had too many people with separate agendas and little communication between the factions was NOT my fault. Although I was in the middle and the nexus of the scheduling issues, I felt in no way responsible for the way things were working out. I tried to communicate at every turn what my circumstance was and how I could be of help within the time frame I had available. I could sense the frustration of the NBC crewer and the "problems" I had created for him. Of course, I didn't have the big picture and never understood that by accepting the shipping position for Wednesday that it included the next three days, nor did I realize that it was a separate job from the production assistant job that I had done the previous week. I just wanted to help in whatever role they felt I could be of most use. I certainly was not double, even triple booking myself intentionally. Holding my tongue and just taking the comments and tone from the NBC crewer was difficult. I really wanted to defend myself, but as I was taking the deep breath and working on my patience, I realized that anything I said wouldn't actually make any difference. The facts were out there, I had already explained the situation so I decided to just let it play out and see what would happen. PATIENCE. Four hours later the call came in. I could tell my his tone right away that the news was not favorable. Bottom line, the problem was mine and that I was not going to working for the technical/broadcast side of the production for any days and that I was no longer needed. He let me know that I created the problem and I would have to just deal with the fact that if I couldn't be there on Saturday, they weren't going to use me at all. Not the news I wanted to hear, but pretty much what I was expecting after the previous call. I apologized for any miscommunication that occurred due to me and let him know I was sorry that we couldn't work it out. He really didn't want to hear it and said to me that I was "on my own" on this one, just before he hung up.

Thing like this happen in life all the time. I try to maintain an even keel and to make sure that I do my best to communicate with honesty and integrity. To give notice as soon as I am aware of a potential conflict and make an effort to have a resolution in place to alleviate any additional work for others involved are the main items I try to cover. In the past I have failed miserably at this due to my lack of patience and being quick to jump to conclusions with emotional outbursts which tend to only exacerbate the situation.

Hence the resolve now to exercise my patience and work on listening to the others position and concern before I strike out in my defense. More importantly, while I am taking the deep breath I am trying to focus on hearing the word of God inside me, to sense His presence in my heart which is a balm to the strife and conflict I find myself immersed. It only takes a split second of focus to bring a sense of calm and foundation into my head and allow me to hold my tongue and let the other have their say. I find myself quicker to apologize for any perceived slight on my part and less inclined to seek retribution or acknowledgement for my deeds. These are things which in the past I felt I was entitled to. I am a flawed and faulted individual with many weaknesses and glaring deficiencies, but it is in those times when I am weakest that God has the opportunity to be at His greatest! I pray that I may be a tool for God, a tool for good and be used as a way for His light, His love to shine. I will continue to make mistakes (hopefully fewer) and most likely be perceived as causing problems for others (hopefully not as grand) but through the exercise of self-control and the discipline of patience, by listening to the voice of God inside me and then acting accordingly I will become a better person.

Oh, finally...after hearing that I was cancelled off the show all together, I sent a text to the production manager and let him know that I was no longer working any days and not doing any of the shipping and I was not available on Saturday at all. I wanted to make sure all the communication was followed up on. Amazingly, he texted me right back and said he was thrilled to hear that I he wanted me to show up tomorrow morning at 9am and work for him the next three days, he'd find someone else for Saturday and was glad the other group had let me go so he didn't have to fight for my services! WHAT?!?!

Thank you God for the challenges you present me with and the opportunities to better myself through You. In my weakness you are strong and through Your strength I will prevail. Can't wait to see what tomorrow brings, because Thursday night it's Viking vs Rams in an epic battle on the court for the boys first home game of 2011 and I will be on the mic letting the Lord's passion, love and enthusiasm flow through me! See you at the gym...

Monday, January 3, 2011

January 3, 2011 the day that was and then some...

It is funny how something you choose to pay attention to becomes the focus of nearly everything. Kinda like when you get a new car, you buy it because you like it and no one else has one. Then after you are in your new car, you see them everywhere! Same color, same style, same, same, same. Its like wherever you look you see what wasn't there before or was it? Your focus helps shape your reality and how you perceive what is around you brings you into focus...

Patience...patience, patience...for the past three days I have tried to focus on being more patient. Every time I turn around I am being faced with new and diverse tests of my patience to varying degrees. The extremely slow driver in front of me, the demanding person asking me to do some tedious task that they could do their self, the person who believes they are doing something for my benefit with an ulterior motive that is actually self-motivated, the list goes on and on. Let me breakdown my last day and a half...

Yesterday, Sunday, I was blessed to work the the Seahawks football game against the Rams for the NFC Championship. A big game with a big production for NBC's Sunday night football. The broadcast crew was made up mainly of the traveling crew with about eight lucky local freelance hires. i was called directly by one contact to be a runner/production assistant for the staff coming in, a gig that doesn't pay very well, but when you don't have a regular job you've gotta take what is offered when it's offered. My name was also given to the game day crewer by someone who was already working and for that I was very thankful, (the broadcast side pays nearly 3x the other rate). Okay, get to the point already!

Game day is a very hectic day. After being a runner for the previous days, the person who I had been working for still had a few things on her list for me to do, even though I wasn't working for her. Her list included, renewing a memebership at Costco, bringing in spaghetti al dente for her boss, buying two cans of Campbells chicken and rice soup and coming in an hour earlier than I actual call time. Her first call to me was at 8am and by 9:56am I had spoken with or been texted 5 times, patience. As I arrived at the stadium I was blessed with a parking pass for the Qwest Field parking garage and I happily parked and unloaded my list of items I had gotten on my way in. Arms loaded, I headed to the elevator to the 2nd floor where for the past ten years we were allowed to walk out a down next to the elevators then down the stairs to the tv compound. Not today! I was directed to walk all the way to the other end of the parking garage, down the stairs, to security at the access road where my two bags where searched and I was patted down. PAtience... Dropping off my list of scavenger hunt items and the corresponding receipts, I went to the loading dock entry to head into the break room and check out the game assignments for the utilities. Low and behold, more security, another search of my bag and another pat down and I am finally allowed to enter the tv compound. PATience...Fast forward to the end of the game as we are finished with the strike, our out time is 11:45pm, I've been at the stadium for nearly 13 hours. When I get to the 6th floor of the parking garage, there are two other cars along with my own, it's below 30 degrees and a cold wind is blowing. I open my car door to an odd sounding tone/beep that I have never heard, therefore don't recognize. Upon turning the key the tone becomes more insistent my car doesn't start. It is then that I see my headlight are turned on and they have been on ALL day long! My battery is dead...PATIence...I call one of the other utilities who is parked in the other garage to check if he has jumper cables, no such luck. I head back down the elevator to go to security, now I can go out the 2nd floor door and down the stairs to the security control room. At this time of night there is only two people on duty, one of which is heading to attend to an emergency with a night worker and awaiting the arrival of medical aid unit. Talking to the man on duty he said that they had a hand held car jumper that he could bring up once the other security officer returned. He said it would be about 10-15 minutes and took my phone number to call me when he was on his way up. I thanked him and said I would be waiting for him and his assistance. PATIEnce...

As I arrived back at my car, one of the other cars was just getting ready to leave a mid size suv. He saw that I had my hood up and came over to offer assistance. I let him know I had left my headlights on and needed a jump. He pulled his truck up to my car and asked if I had jumper cables. I told him no and the checked that back of his rig and unfortunately he didn't have either. I thanked him for the offer and let him know security was going to come help me. As I sat and pondered my dilemma, I recalled a conversation that Julie and I had just the other day about getting AAA for the family. The irony was not lost on me and I could hear a small chuckle (either angles or God, i'm not sure which).

My car is a manual transmission and I recalled from my youth that I started more than one of my cars by giving it a push down a hill and popping the clutch, compression starting the car. Sounded like a viable idea and the ramp down to the 5th floor was only about 30 yards away. So, while I was waiting I decided to try the old fashioned way. At first it wasn't so tough pushing my car. Unfortunately, I had to push it forward and then try to turn while I was pushing so I could get my car facing in the right direction to go down the ramp. 30 yards turned into nearly 50 yards as I almost doubled my route to get where I wanted to go. Once I was lined up, I gave it a final push, jumped in and coasted down the ramp. After gaining some speed and momentum I popped the clutch and my car tried to start, but not quite enough. PATIENce...As I coasted to a stop I realized the key was in the wrong position! It was only in the accessory slot, not the start position...little things sometimes can make a huge difference! The silver lining was that I was now under a light and could see my battery in the trunk much better, so that was helpful. At this point I had been waiting for nearly 25 minutes when my friend who I had called earlier called me back to check in on me, I let him know I was still waiting for security but they would be there soon. He offered to come back to get me and give me a ride home if it I couldn't get my car started.

Security called and said they were on their way up. A few minutes later, he came up with the hand held battery jumper. I connected the charger and crossed my fingers. My car needed more juice than the hand held device could provide. The security guy, said he had jumper cables in his Ford Explorer and he would be back in a couple of minutes to give me a jump. Ten minutes later...PATIENCe...he came driving up and we hooked up the cables. First try my car turned over and I was driving home. I called my friend and let him know that I was on my way and thanked him for his concern and willingness to help. Nearly an hour after I was released I was finally heading home after a long day.

As I merged onto the freeway and sped up to the flow of traffic, obviously in a hurry to just get home and end the day, there he was, a state patrolman that was driving just over the speed limit. We all drove 63 mph for the next 20 miles until Federal Way when someone with not enough PATIENCE went flying by at probably close to 80mph and the officer decided to have a talk with him. The state patrol car's lights blossomed blue and red in the crisp night he pulled the car over.

Long story, just a little longer...I made it home safely, weary and worn out my patience tested but not broken, thanking God for another day and praying for the blessings to wake to another! I am sure more lessons are on their way and challenges that I will need to face and overcome. How I handle them is the key, Thank you God for these opportunities to become a better me!

Sunday, January 2, 2011

January 2, 2011...Just a few quick thoughts

It is funny to me that whenever I make decisions and choose a certain path or plan out an attack on an area of my life that needs improving, the moment the decision is made things start popping up that either emphasize my deficiencies or weaknesses and try to derail my motivation from the get go.

Yesterday, I spoke about patience and needing to take the time to be more patient, to slow down and take a deep breath. This goes with being more understanding of others and trying not to become overwhelmed by their needs or conversely intimidating them into succumbing to my wishes. I have been employed the past couple of days as a runner/pa for NBC getting the Sunday Night Football crew ready for the game tonight. My boss, who works directly with her boss who shares the trailer with the executive director of the network is very understandably picky about the way things are done and the appearance of things. In addition, she is the person everyone comes to that needs something (new light bulbs, nuts, bolts, etc.) these tasks then are delegated to each of her assistants (runners/pas). Today, I am not working for her, but for the broadcast itself, my call time is noon, but I just received a call from her asking when I would be in as she would like me to do a "few" things for her. I already have on my plate from yesterday to stop at Costco and renew their membership and I had to stop at a restaurant last night and pick up two orders of al dente spaghetti for her to serve today...I will be patient and understanding, I am here to help and today I will do my best to help as many people as I can.

Not knowing how the day ahead will go in terms of when I will be home tonight, it will probably be after midnight, I wanted to make sure I got in a little something today. Each of the small issues and challenges that get put in my way I will do my best to take a deep breath and hold to my resolve to be more patient and allow God to work in my life so that I can take the blessings that I am given and become a blessing to those with whom I come in contact today.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

January 1, 2011 - Here we go...are you ready for this?

This first day of 2011, I am going to try writing to myself about the day past or ahead depending upon the time I sit down to write. This year I am going to work on a number of issues that tend to be weaknesses in my personality or character. I hesitate to call them "resolutions", although I have "resolved" these things need to be addressed; (so let's call them items of focus and attention)
*take time to LISTEN - to God, Especially! also to those around me and whoever I am talking with, give them my attention and hear what they are saying.
*be PATIENT - make a conscious effort to slow down and take a deep breath, to not be in such a hurry, to not jump to conclusions and let scenarios play out before I
become upset about a potential problem which may or may not develop.
*FORGIVE - let things go as quick as they come, to not let small things or perceived personal affronts become a focus of my attention.
*READ - Spend time daily reading something in my bible and then find other things to read that also intrigue or entertain me.
*WRITE - Each day I will write for this entire year, If not for published blogging, story telling or inspirational thoughts, I will write about my day. The mundane and everyday detail, my thoughts and activities for the whole year, one day at a time, logged in a monthly heading, (beginning today with January 2011).
*FLOSS & Take my Vitamins - I will floss my teeth every single day of this year with out exception or excuse and I will take a multiple vitamin daily.

I also will make an effort to workout and get into better shape, physically, mentally and spiritually...although not done in bold or caps, exercise and eating better are going to be staples and a foundation for everything else. ( I WILL DO 90DAYS OF P90X!)

WARNING: The following is pretty mundane and just me writing about my thoughts and the day I had, feel free not to read further as I'm not sure I even meant to write this for public comsuption, but I'm gonna post it anyway!

As I sit here for the first time on 1-1-11 it is 8pm and I have had a long day working and look forward to another long day working tomorrow. Julie and I have just watched one of the shows we like on dvr "undercover" about two CIA agents who are husband and wife and have crazy missions and adventures all while maintaining a loving caring marriage. Champ needed a little attention and I threw his tennis ball upstairs 10 times or so until he got tired and decided to go back to chewing his bone at our feet. He is such a great dog, our big yellow dog!

Today I worked for NBC as a runner/production assistant for Diana Solomon getting ready for the Sunday night football game tomorrow that will be the NFC West Championship game. I spent most of today running around, searching for a telephone that would accept a headset and then picking up miscellaneous items like bolts, nuts, washers, halogen work lights, wd40 and lithium grease spray. As a runner you pretty much do whatever they ask of you. I gave a tour of QWest stadium to the runners who will be working tomorrow, showing them each of the production trucks and the general layout of the television compound, A unit - production, B unit - video/tape, C unit - graphics & sports media, the break room and the location of the pregame meal for tomorrow. Then I took them and Diana on a tour of the stadium, different routes to get to the field, the press box and the NBC booth located in the press box as well as the location of the on field set for "Football Night in America" the pregame show before the Sunday night football game. For the past two days I have worked with another runner/pa Austen Willis (RD Willis' daughter, a jr at WSU) to help Diana get everything she needs set up and prepared for game day.

I still have to pick up al dente spaghetti on my way home from Toscano's restaurant for Dick Ebersole's , the executive director of NBC, lunch tomorrow when he arrives on sight. Then before taking on the mantel of utility I will finish up my runner/pa duties on my way in by stopping by Costco and renewing the membership for Diana's account and the two other cards on the account. It never ceases to amaze me the things I am asked to do as a runner on these network shows. The fact that I am making essentially $10/hour or $100 for the day, makes me stop and wonder what I have done that I need to take this kind of work? It's not hard, but it does say something that this is the kind of work I find myself doing. (I will look into this further as the year goes on)
Chance came up to the stadium to help get the Rams locker room set up for tomorrow. It is always great to see him. He spent new year's eve at Justin's house and he is heading back there when he got done with the visit locker room. He said they still had half a keg to get finished before he and Justin headed back over to Ellensburg tomorrow. Doug Walker is going to let him miss the game tomorrow as the move to the NBC Sunday night game now makes it a 5:30p start and wouldn't get Chance on the road back to the burg until around midnight. I am so proud of my son and hope that he can get back to college and figure out what he is going to do as far as post-college or continuing his education. There are a couple of concerns I have about him right now, but feel as a 21 year old, he needs the space to be able to make his own decisions without his "Dad" leaning on him. I have faith in God and pray for him to find the path to his own success and not the path to success I think he should take.

Tomorrow I will be working for the engineering side of the game, moving from the production runner/pa position to the field utility working with the hand held camera on the sideline of the game.

It will be my first real test with a couple of my items of focus for 2011, patience and forgiveness. I found out today the assignments for tomorrow and I am currently scheduled to be the hand held camera utility with a name I did not recognize. The hand held camera is the one which literally runs up and down the sideline during the game getting the shots of the game, players and anything else the director asks of him. It is a pretty demanding position for a utility as it is my job to make sure my camera man can get wherever he wants to go. While I am sincerely thankful for the work, I now know that I am working with a young man who has never worked a football game before and probably doesn't know how to handle cable or understand the concept of "cornering" that will assist me in getting our camera man to wherever he wants to go. This is the exact reason I quit working NFL for nearly a year and a half, as I consistently had to be the "hip" on the hand held while training a green corner guy to assist me. Being put in a position where I have to pay attention to the camera man in front of me and where he wants to go and also be aware of whats happening behind me with someone who may or may not be there is a stressful spot. I've done it on numerous occasions and have never not gotten my cameraman where he wanted to go, but the amount of work it takes and the stress of training someone new in a venue like an NFC Championship game is three times the amount of pressure. Hence, I will be immersed in patience tomorrow as I endeavor to fulfill my duties, while teaching someone how to do their job, which directly effects me.

Forgiveness will be holding hands with my test of patience as I need to let go of my feelings of being let down by someone. As he suggested my name to the crewer, he also brought along two of his friends who lack the experience and knowledge to do the jobs they are going to find themselves doing tomorrow. His "kindness" to his buddies to get them work of this kind is putting me in a position where I am going to have to carry one of them all day up and down the sideline. I mean I will literally be dragging him behind my on the cable trying to give him the insight and advice that will help him do his job to help me do mine. As I write this I am praying for forgiveness and putting faith in God that all will be well tomorrow and I am envisioning a scenario that is worse that what will actually be. It will all work out I am sure, I just need to keep my focus on the things that matter and not get caught up in the "poor me" syndrome that takes me down paths I choose not to travel any longer.

As 9pm nears and my second Samuel Adams is also nearing its demise, I will draw this dissertation to a close and leave something for tomorrow. January 1, 2011 has come and gone, nearly as fast as the whole of 2010! Did I accomplish anything today? How about last year? I woke up at 245 lbs...what am I gonna do about that? For now I will pick up my bible, read some 2 Corinthians and then head to bed to snuggle with my wonderful wife. Tomorrow will be here soon enough, no sense in trying to bring tomorrow into today, as today is all that I have!

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

some more of the story...(this chapter is longer)

The rain was pouring down outside the restaurant, working this double shift was starting to drag on him, but the smile wouldn't leave his face. In the back of his mind as he cleared another table of dirty dishes and half eaten meals, he was envisioning being in the mountains. The heavy rain and cold temperatures outside meant that it was dumping snow in the higher elevations. The ski resorts weren't open yet, but Chad wasn't concerned about that. The crowds and novice skiers stayed to the groomed slopes and chairlift available hills at Crystal and that was just fine with him. He was part of a select few who ventured into the back country to find a little piece of the mountain all to themselves.

Dropping off his load of plates and silverware, he went through the motions of being the attentive waiter and service provider that he normally was, but really it was all he could do to stay through his shift. He knew it would look bad if he left early.

Chad enjoyed his job, the people he worked with and the customers who came into eat. The Ram was a casual place to work, the hours were good, the people were generally happy and easy to deal with and he had a natural talent for making those around him feel comfortable. This easy going and friendly attitude was reflected in the tips he received as he went from table to table making sure everyone was getting the food and service they deserved. He was popular with the staff because all of his tips went into a common tip jar that was split equally among those working. Being one of the youngest managers in the chain's local market had both its benefits and drawbacks, contributing to the tip jar created a bond with his staff. That was one of the reasons that Chad felt the desire to be on the floor, interacting with the customers and filling gaps to help out the wait staff and kitchen, to provide the quality of service his restaurant had become known. He was happy to pick up the slack and make the job easier for everyone, tending bar or clearing tables, taking orders or delivering the meals, it was all part of the same machine and Chad had the knack for making the machine run smoothly.

Try as he might, today was different. Tomorrow was the beginning of a week of vacation and Chad was going to spend it in the mountains. He loved the mountains. Any time of year, there was a beauty and serenity that made him feel close to nature and God. During one of his hikes this past summer, Chad had found an area in the back country just south of the Crystal Mountain ski resort that looked like it was going to be a spectacular spot for snowboarding once the snows came to the Cascades. Not too much of a hike, but once they closed highway 410, it was a little for difficult to gain access to the area. The rainy September, one of the wettest on record, nearly 11 inches of rain, had literally flowed into a damp and wet November. The weather in the northwest didn't always work to his advantage, but a cold front had moved in and it looked like mother nature was working in his favor to provide an excellent layer of fresh snow for him to carve up. He always tried to schedule his vacation time just before the busy holiday season began, he would be back two days before Thanksgiving. It was a way to recharge his batteries and gear up for the non-stop hustle of the Thanksgiving celebration that continued non-stop all the way through the new year.

Mount Rainier had been covered in a blanket of white for well over a month after a fairly dry summer. The areas showing the grey/blue rocks slowly became smaller and smaller patches as the mountain donned it's winter white coat. He kept a close eye on the pass reports and looked forward to the time when the department of transportation finally closed highway 410 just passed the ski resort turn off, outside of Greenwater. The DOT had done just that almost ten days ago as the treacherous winding two lane road became too dangerous for travelers, as it crested the Cascades and turned east as it dropped down into Yakima. So now, it was just a matter of his schedule to find the time to get away from the hustle and bustle and seek out the space of solitary quite that only the back country in winter could provide.
Coming out of his revere and back to the din of a busy dinner service, he shook his head, the smile remaining on his face as he collected the remains of another table. The conversations and general noise of the crowded restaurant lulling him into his routine. It was just a matter of a few more hours and he would be alone and free to commune with nature at it's most exquisite beauty.

The morning dawned cold and Chad rolled out of bed ready to hit the road. He already had his gear packed in his Yukon and couldn't wait to get on the road. The sun painting the eastern horizon with spectacular hues of orange, pink and purple lent an almost surreal quality to the morning sky. The beauty that God created all around him, never ceased to make Chad feel so thankful and grateful for being able to perceive and acknowledge the greatness of God. It was one of the reasons that he so much enjoyed being in the wilderness alone. He was able to almost feel the forest around him. The taste of the pine scented air, the crispness it created as it touched his exposed skin exhilarated him to push deeper into the woods of the Wenatchee/Snoqualmie National Forest land that he enjoyed exploring so much.

The hike ahead was going to be a bit arduous, but the payoff at the end was well worth the effort. After scouting about this past summer, Chad had come upon a ravine that looked to be a natural half-pipe. Almost as if a large ice cream scoop had been used to carve out a bowl in the side of the mountain. Trees lined the upper edges, but the lower bowl was clear and ran nearly a hundred feet at a gentle incline of about thirty degrees down the side of the hill. Located just over two miles in from the road closed juncture of 410, Chad knew he would be essentially alone in the south eastern corner of the Mt. Rainier national park. He would be beyond the boundaries of the Crystal Mountain ski resort where few if any of the back country cross country skiers would attempt to traverse.

The drive up through Buckley and Enumclaw was uneventful, a few patches of melting snow on the side of the road as he drove past the mud mountain dam and into the foothills toward Greenwater. Chad parked his truck off the side of the road in a turn out at the bottom of the hill at the base of Crystal Mountain drive. He figured the ski resort would be opening soon and he was only planning on spending a couple of days in the back country. His cold weather gear was fairly compact and provided an efficient means of protection from the elements once he was able to set his base camp.

Strapping his snowboard and backpack on, Chad stepped around the ROAD CLOSED barrier and started walking up the snow covered road. Taking deep breaths of the cold mountain air, filling his lungs with the freshness of a new day brought a joy to his heart and a lightness to his steps. At 23 years old, Chad was in excellent physical condition and the promise of the new fallen snow on the hill drove him to quicken his pace. Just being out in the snow covered forest made Chad happy to be alive. As he walked, he could pick out the tracks of small woodland animals who had been out foraging during the night. Rounding a bend in the road, a sight that few ever got to see delighted him. The dark brown and tan furry hide could just barely be seen. It blended with the shadows of the dark tree trunks and the moss clinging to the branches. It moved without making a sound as its feet broke through the crust of the frozen top layer of snow. Chad stood still not wanting to spook the majestic creature, he had only heard tales of animals this big that roamed the national parks in this area. He had seen signs of them during his hikes in the spring and fall, but he had yet to witness one up close and personal. Its back was nearly at his eye level, the enormous head was well over seven feet off the ground. As it moved among the trees the majesty and confidence it exuded was almost palpable.

Chad realized he was holding his breath. He had stopped in his tracks not wanting to spook the animal as he took in its splendor. The sunlight played tricks with his eyes as he tried to determine just how big it actually was. His perspective was skewed as he was on the hard surface of the road and beast was standing nearly knee deep in the snow some thirty to forty yards ahead of him amongst the Douglas firs. The stories of this kind of animal played through Chad's mind. Not one even came close to describing the beauty and raw power of seeing anything in the wild in person. This was why he so looked forward to these solitary excursions. Finally, the winds changed and Chad was given away by his scent on the breeze. The massive elk raised his head, the more than twelve point rack upon its brow swinging as it turned its head to look directly at him. Chad could almost feel that gaze, the intense stare of an animal that was not afraid. The flare of its nostrils taking in his scent, the expansion of its chest as the lungs filled and the elk stood taller and even more majestic. Chad felt as if he was being measured. The unwavering gaze of the creature held him transfixed into place. He could feel his heart rate speed up and his pulse quicken in his throat. This was an encounter with one of nature's most honorable creations. Chad blinked his eyes as he took a deep breath and just like that the elk was gone. No sound, no flurry of snow, just gone.

A quick prayer of thanks to God for the fantastic opportunity to view and interact with such a wonderful creature, brought out of his near trance and back to enjoying the world around him. He had been walking for almost two hours and it was nearing midday. The area he was looking for had to be around here somewhere near. His first order of business was to establish his base camp, get his tent set up and get the rest of his gear stored. Chad had everything he needed for a couple of days in the back country and he knew he would be tired after a long hike followed by the exertion of blazing his own trail on his snowboard in the fresh powder. Therefore, he was most anxious to get the tedious necessity of getting his camp set.

Chad spotted the rock outcrop on the the uphill east side of the road that he had designated his landmark when he had first scouted this area. There was a clearing in the woods just a few hundred yards due west of the road that would make for a perfect spot to set camp. The surrounding forest and slight dip in the topography made for a natural shelter from the wind and provided him an area where the build up of drifting snow would not be an issue. Chad had thrown up his tent so many times it only took him a few minutes to unload his burden of backpack and snowboard and stow the remaining items inside out of the weather.

Kicking out of his hiking boots and into his snowboard boots, Chad grabbed his board and went in search of his shredding ground. The anticipation of seeing the ravine filled with snow waiting for his arrival was almost too much to bear. The clear sky overhead meant a great afternoon of snowboarding but also that if conditions remained the same, it would get very cold. Treking through the old growth forest Chad felt his insignificance, the true smallness of one human being, compared with the vastness of all that surrounded him. As always, he felt like an intruder into the sanctity of a pristine forest. Thanking God for allowing him such a wonderful opportunity to be part of such beauty, Chad vowed to make himself appreciate all that he had been given.

Cresting a small hill, he knew he was close to the ravine he had come upon in the summer. Sure enough, the trees parted and there before him was the sight he had envisioned during the warmth of late August. The ravine had indeed filled with snow. The resulting half pipe flowed down and away from him beckoning to him. Here at the top, he was almost mid-thigh in powder and he wondered how deep the lower bowl was going to be.

It didn't take him long to find out. Cinching his bindings to his boots and dropping into the bowl with abandon, Chad felt at one with the mountain. His freshly waxed board gliding over the snow, the powder billowing up in his face nearly blinded him. The sharp edges of his board carving into the snow as he leaned from heel side to toe side, looking for the edge of the ravine as he headed up the inclined side of the half pipe. Gaining speed and launching himself skyward, a frontside 360 with a tail grab on the way down made him shout out loud. The sound of his voice startling even himself in the near silence of the forest. The unrestrained joy he was feeling, the almost overwhelming freedom of he experienced at these times brought tears to his eyes. Then he thought, maybe it was just the cold stinging wind on his face that brought the tears, but either way he was as happy as he could ever remember being.

Coming off the far side of the bowl, Chad noticed a small depression in the snow at the bottom of the ravine, directly in front of him. It wasn't a large hole, just a small variance from the accumulation of snow around it. He wasn't even sure why it caused him any concern, but for some reason his eyes were drawn to it. Before he could correct his course and swerve around the dip, the front of his board disappeared into the snow. All at once a feeling of weightlessness enveloped him. It felt as if he was falling, falling a long way down. He became disoriented as he tumbled through the hole, flipping end over end. His mind tried to process what was happening, the fall seemed to be taking forever. Finally, with a jolt of pain and the wind being forced out of his lungs Chad landed on his back, his board next to him in the snow.

At first he thought maybe he had fallen over a waterfall, but the light was not right. His vision slowly cleared as he raised himself up on an elbow to survey where he had landed. The light he noticed was all around him with just a small circle of blue directly above him. The blurry vision made it hard to determine distance as his depth perception was off, but it seemed the blue spot was way above him. Chad shook his head to try and clear the cobwebs a little. He rubbed his eyes and realized he still had his goggles on. Removing his eye protection he was astonished to see that he had fallen into a cave of some sort. The blue spot was actually the sky some thirty feet over his head and the hole he had inadvertently fallen through. Rolling over on his side, the jolt of pain was like and electric shock up his left leg and through his back. It was then that he noticed he was still strapped into the snowboard by his binding and his left foot was at a totally bizarre angle. It was like viewing something on tv, it didn't even look real the way his foot was turned around. If it wasn't broken, his ankle was seriously messed up. Amazingly, he didn't really feel the kind of pain one would expect from an injure that looked as severe as this one appeared to be.

The light filtering into the cave showed through one wall that looked like a curtain of ice. Behind him, the cave traveled back into darkness. It didn't look like any readily available route of escape from the cave was accessible. Using his snowboard as a lever, Chad was able to get himself into a more or less sitting position. From here he began to take stock of his situation. A few deep breaths made him realize that he had probably broken a couple of ribs. Once he had removed his boot from the binding and got his foot pointing in the proper direction, the pain in his ankle had subsided substantially and he decided that it was most likely not broken but sprained for certain. Out of the corner of his eye, Chad thought that he saw movement in the darkness of the tunnel. Fearing that he may have awoken some hibernating black bear, he tried to stand.

The wave of nausea and light headedness that nearly made him pass out, indicated that he probably had a concussion. Holding onto consciousness by sheer will power he brought himself upright so as to present a larger image. Using his peripheral vision, without turning his head he tried to locate the source of the movement. Not wanting to create a direct confrontation by making eye contact, he slowly moved toward the wall of ice in search of a way out.

Movement again caught his attention and he could feel a presence in the cave with him. The uneven floor made it hard to move with his impaired ankle, the snowboard providing him with a crutch to lean some weight upon. As he neared the light of the wall a cold draft brought with it an odor that renewed his nausea. The stench churned his stomach and made him reflexively grab for his nose. The sudden movement caused him to overbalance on his good leg and sent him sprawling to the floor. Just before his head hit the ground and darkness overtook him, the shadows took life and stepped forward. As his eyes involuntarily closed, he was sure that he saw a huge man standing there looking down at him with sympathetic eyes. He fought to remain awake, but the strain became just too much. He felt emotionally tired as well as physically drained. Incredibly though, the fear he thought he should be feeling at being trapped with a big black bear about to be eaten wasn't present at all. The comforting blackness of dreamless sleep enveloped him as he slipped from the conscious world.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thanksgiving eve...remembering to be thankful!

Thanksgiving eve...
Watching the news and the weather reports Sunday made me stop and think about all of the things I need to constantly remind myself that I am thankful for, each of the blessings in my life that only through the loving mercy of God am I able to obtain. A roof over my head, warm clothes to wear, a refrigerator full of food waiting to be prepared for a Thanksgiving feast, shared with family and friends. A day of shopping and picking up the last things on the grocery list brought home to me how incredibly blessed I truly am. So, with God in my heart I decided to forgo food until Thanksgiving day. It has been since 7pm on Sunday that my wife and I shared dinner together, nearly 67 hours ago.

As we sat together in the warmth of our home, the fireplace on and a happy dog at our feet, it dawned on me what a wonderful wife I have and how much love we share. Blessings come in all sizes and shapes. I am so thankful for my two great kids, both in college and maturing into outstanding young adults. This Thanksgiving we are hosting at our house. We will be serving dinner for close to 30 people and this doesn't include the 20 or so from my side of the family! To have a home that will accommodate that many people comfortably (maybe) is truly a blessing. We sat and discussed the up coming plans for getting everything ready when the lights flickered and we were without power. Thankfully, it lasted just about an hour and we were back to normal.

It was as we were sitting next to the fire that I thought it would be a good idea for me to spend a few days fasting leading into the Thanksgiving festivities. It is so easy to become complacent in our daily lives. Family, friends, food and so much we take for granted. Sacrificing food for a few days has helped me to appreciate and remember that there are so many people today who have so much less than I do. People that will go hungry today, not by choice but by circumstance. Even without the luxury of a full fridge to forage in, I have the blessing of a fridge! I have the warmth of a nice home, filled with love and caring. We each have our individual destinies, our roles to play in life and the paths we choose to follow. It is how we choose to live our lives that show the character of our being. Taking a step back on occasion to view our life from a perspective outside of the daily grind may surprise you when you realize all that you do have.

God is truly awesome in so many ways. The blessings are all around you, be thankful!